Ep.40 You will get tested. [empowerment]

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Hello, and welcome to the Borealis experience. Today,

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I'm especially happy to have you here. It's been a very, very

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tough day. And I was not gonna record anything you can maybe

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hear, still have a snotty nose. But I thought no, I show up for

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you every day. And that means that I'm going to be raw, I'm

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going to be honest. And I'm not going to put on a show. Because

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energetically, I wouldn't make it. If it was a once a week

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podcast, you will get the best version of me every week. But

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you get the daily Aurora. And Aurora goes through very deep

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downs and very high highs. So yeah, it's all good. Everybody's

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healthier, everybody's awesome. I just just problems with my

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phone, my main device for promoting and recreating and

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getting my work here done. That is causing me problems right

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now. And it was all about blaming and shaming from my

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phone provider and my cell service cellular provider,

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however you call it. And now they told me there's a huge

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amount of money involved to get things back into order. And they

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could have told me six days ago, so huge frustration. So all this

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to say I'm not perfect. I'm not living the perfect life. I run

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through shitty situations as well. And sometimes I just laugh

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because I think, Oh, I should live what I preach. I should

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really listen to my podcast today and do a meditation

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because it would do me so well. But recording really helps me to

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center myself and to feel good again. And I want to show up for

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you no matter what. Yes. All right. So let's talk about

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feeling stuck. feeling stuck was what we talked about yesterday,

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we all feel stuck during COVID confinement, and maybe get

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frustrated and maybe get depressed. And we have to find

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ways to be more resilient, because this might have not been

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the last time we run into a virus crisis. So we have to

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unlock our creativity, we have to be there. For other people

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without feeling drained afterwards, we have to find ways

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to be good with certain things being cut out of our lives. So I

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think if we run into problems like I did, and the last couple

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of days, we really have to make it discipline practice to be

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grateful for what we have, I kept reminding myself of my good

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health of my family of my friends and of my animals that I

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have around here. And that helps you to go through and to push

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through when you really want to throw the towel in and you want

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to give up and quit. You have to know that you shouldn't quit and

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you can quit. Because we need you out there and you need

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yourself to be strong. It is okay to feel desperate and

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frustrated and cry and everything. That's not the

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point. But you have to show up as soon as possible again,

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because again, we need you out there. We will always get

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tested. No matter what we do out there, we will get tested,

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especially if we want to challenge ourselves with a new

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project with a new hobby with

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a new partner. There's always going to be tests. Of course if

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you stay at home on your couch and binge watch Netflix, there's

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going to be lesser of a chance to be tested. But chances are if

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you listen to my podcast, you are out there and you want to be

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out there you want to be your best version. So once you start

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healing Once you start on stucking, on fucking yourself,

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you will run into tests. You can call it God is testing you, or

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the universe is testing you, Mother Nature's testing you, if

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you really want to be on that new path, if you're in it for

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the long haul, if you're in 120%, trust me, when I emigrated

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to Canada, it was exactly the same thing. Every time I ran

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into an obstacle, every time, I knew I had to start the process

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all over again, I knew it was testing me and just seeing if I

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wanted to immigrate to Canada 120%. So if we know that, I

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think we can look at our obstacles at our problems from a

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little bit more of a distance, and kind of boil them smaller.

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And really know that if we just stick to it, if we don't feel

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too discouraged. If we're just in there for 51% instead of 49,

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then we can do it, we can really do it. You will be tested, you

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will be tested from your coworkers, you will be tested

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from your parents, you will be tested. I think you say by and

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not from, by the way, you will be tested by your friends, you

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will be tested by yourself your resilience, once you start

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something new. And it is okay to feel like a failure, it is okay

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to compare yourself and feel really shitty for a moment.

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Because other out there, others out there might have more

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experience and a broader skill set. But you can learn those

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skills, you can learn to be your version, your best version and

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just shine out there just like the others. Don't feel

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discouraged. And know that you will be tested, your

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relationships will be tested, your friendships will be tested.

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When you came out of an abusive relationship, you will encounter

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people who will trigger you again. And you have to count

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until 10 then and know is it my trigger reacting now? Or is it

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my true self, myself that wants to be my best version of myself

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that is acting and living from the heart, you will have to make

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these decisions. And it's okay to take your time. You have to

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take that time in order to know what is real, and what is just

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past pain creeping up on you again. If you are in a romantic

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relationship, and you have trust issues, you will be tested. If

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you have abandonment issues, you will be tested. And you really

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have to be careful to distinguish is that person

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hurting me intentionally? Or is it my demons inside of me that

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are trying to protect me? Is it my demons inside of me that

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creating problems just to have that reality that I'm expecting,

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because I'm still not 100% healed. And then meditating and

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spending that 1015 minutes of meditation or a reflection

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meditate with me each day or a couple times a week, you will

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notice what's going on inside of yourself. And you will be out

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there as a more authentic person. You will be out there

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living from the heart and be okay with yourself. Embrace

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yourself and totally accept all your scars. So be okay. being

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tested. Don't feel like life is unfair and everything is bad and

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you're not meant to be on that path. I think you're meant to be

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on their path. You just need to stick to your guns and stick to

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it and take a break. But never bought walk backwards.

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Thank you so much for listening to today's episode. I'm

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shivering a little bit. Because I was sitting outside I needed

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the fresh air and I'm still very upset about my couple of days My

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precious hours that I wasted on my cell phone trying to fix it

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and yeah, that's it. I'm happy that I can be out here serving

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You I'm happy that you're listening to me. And I hope you

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received my message well, that you will feel stuck at times and

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when you unstuck yourself, you will maybe try a new path and it

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will feel awesome and right most of the time, but on those days

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it's not gonna feel good and it's gonna feel hard. I just

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don't want it to give up. All right, until tomorrow again,