Ep. 3 Do you even like yourself ? self-acceptance [self care]

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Hello, and welcome to the Borealis experience. I'm

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your host Aurora. And I'm very happy to be spending some time

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with you today. This podcast is your mental health podcast.

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Maybe mental health is something that you've been avoiding in the

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past something, something that, yeah, doesn't really ignite good

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feelings. But trust me, a healthy mind is so sexy. A

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healthy body is so attractive, and a person who's just

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confident with who they are. So chances are if you figuring out

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your life, you want to change things. You landed on my website

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here or onto my podcast. So I welcome you warmly. This is a

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beautiful pass you on. And I'm very happy to be part of it. You

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can always reach out to me on Facebook, my name is Aurora

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experience as podcast category.

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Alright, let's dive into today's topic inspired by Richard, he

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requested this episode, he wants me to talk about acceptance. And

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I'm assuming Richard that it is self acceptance that you're

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talking about. So I will talk about this. But I will also talk

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about, like general acceptance, on how we can become more

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accepting of situations, circumstances and other people

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I feel it all begins with you, the better you feel about

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yourself, the better person you're going to be to other

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people out there. And the more positive of an outlook you have

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on the future.

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A person who looks into the mirror in the morning and is

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very conflicted doesn't like to look at herself or himself.

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Those people have a really hard time to be self accepting. And

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also accepting of others, the more critical you are with

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yourself, the more harsh your inner chatting is, the harsher

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and the more radical you will be with the outside world to that's

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just a given. The happier you are with yourself and content,

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The more relaxed you are, and the more relaxed and content is

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your environment as well. Because everything is energy,

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you attract what you put out there into the world. And when

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we feel very insecure about ourselves, when we feel like we

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can forgive what we've done in the past, then I understand it

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is a very, very position to be in. And then you can exercise

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you can put makeup on you can put on a happy face. But

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internally, you still feel like not enough. Not belonging. Not

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okay. You feel troubled inside, because, yeah, you're out and

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about and you're trying to go do good things. But you still feel

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guilty or shame for things that you've done in the past.

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And it doesn't really matter that I don't know a person or

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you for instance, Richard, but I know especially if you listen to

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his podcast here if he listened to my videos, and not because

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they're so awesome. But because of the content that you are

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willing to let go that you are willing to move on and to

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forgive and to be okay with what was and to look into the future

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with more hope and contentment.

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So I want to invite you to

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go into bird's eye perspective now. hover above yourself. And

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when you close your eyes, sometimes that's easier. But if

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you're driving, of course not.

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We're operating any machinery, of course nod. But look down

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onto you.

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And what do you see?

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Do you see pain?

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Do you see regret?

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Do you see anger? resentment?

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Is it sadness, suppressed feelings,

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or maybe even depression that you see.

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And now imagine

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me

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looking down onto you.

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And I know nothing about you.

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But I can see you.

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And I see a person

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who is ready to move on.

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And who's ready to forgive?

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Or who's ready to accept

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and just be content with

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what you have.

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Now, again, if you're operating machinery or walking, driving,

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don't close your eyes.

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But I want to invite you now

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to listen to your thoughts.

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Are you really still angry

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at yourself

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about something that you've done in the past, I do feel like

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intense shame,

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then we have to start an air this.

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And what I mean by that is

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that you have to find somebody that you can talk about this

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with.

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And sometimes it's okay to sit with it and to

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be

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with those feelings. But if they are too intense,

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then seek help.

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I'm not

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a medical adviser. I'm not a mental health counselor. I'm

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just a normal person, a very, very regular girl

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who has gone through stuff and who learned to let go and

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forgive herself. And all I can do here is to invite you and do

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the same.

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You have to trust that the person who has done something in

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the past that you're not proud of that you scared off maybe

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even today didn't know better. You had your reasons.

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And maybe you had to go to jail. And you had to sit down and make

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some time.

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Do sometimes sorry.

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But now you're out and about again.

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And this means that the government trusts you. And this

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means that the people around you can trust you to

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and it's unfortunate how many people are in jail for really

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nothing and

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sometimes even unjustified. But I'm talking about the people who

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got out again

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and are given a second chance. And you have to fucking give it

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your all. You're given a second chance. And you have to start

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forgive yourself first. You can't expect that from society,

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from your family, from your friends. You have to forgive

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yourself first. And to go out there and be confident with who

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you are.

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So now when you sit in meditation here with me when you

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do these little

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meditations and reflection when you listen to the interviews,

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observe your thoughts.

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And when it is about you, when you make it about yourself,

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see how self destructive, your thoughts are so against you, you

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wouldn't even talk to your best friend, like you do to yourself.

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And this is where we have to hack into,

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we have to start changing the conversation that we have with

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ourselves.

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That is the first step of forgiveness. When you make a

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little mistake,

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forgive yourself, when you make a big mistake, see it as a

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lesson, learn from it. And then forgive yourself.

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You know, the thing is, the longer it takes you or the

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longer you stay in that position of being a victim of not being

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good enough,

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the longer we are missing you as a society out there, because you

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have so much to offer, you have so much potential, and in

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drowning and your shame and your regret and your sadness and your

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anger and your resentment.

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you're depriving us to see you, the person that you could be out

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there.

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So, set with your thoughts, look at the conversation that you

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have with yourself and start there, start being okay with who

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you are. start trusting yourself again. And know that every day

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you wake up, every hour, even, you can become a better person.

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You can, you know, like

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the compass, if you imagine a compass, you can imagine that

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needle and put every little bit of energy that you have into a

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direction that you want to see yourself walking.

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And tonight, when you go to bed, I want you to picture the you

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that you want to see in a year and five years, maybe in 10

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years, maybe you want to give up an addiction. Maybe you want to

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give up on those nasty, self destructive thoughts that you

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have all day long. Maybe you want to start forgiving yourself

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and take better care of yourself. Because nobody is

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going to do it. People are only going to treat you the way they

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feel about you. And also the way you feel about yourself. If you

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feel you're not worthy of a beautiful, happy relationship,

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you will not get it. You might have it for a certain time. But

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then it will vanish.

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So you paint that picture, you paint that frame that you want

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to see yourself in.

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And every day, every hour of the day even you take baby steps

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towards that person.

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Ever, every time you have a choice.

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You think about what would my best version decide in this

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case?

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And it is not somebody out there that you're trying to copy and

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paste their behavior from it is you your version of yourself?

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What are you capable of? You're capable of so much you're

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capable of being forgiving with others relaxed with yourself

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content, even successful. But you have to start listening to

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your ongoing chatter in your mind. What is it that you're

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still insecure about? What is it that you're scared of showing to

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people?

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You know, there's people out there who've done

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terrible stuff in their life.

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And they went through pain, they went through

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the consequences that were needed, they learned and then

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they forgave themselves.

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And

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when you think about people like Louie CK for instance,

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Louie CK a comedian who has gone a little bit too far when it

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came to his sexual fantasies. look him up. Maybe there's

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nothing left on the internet.

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about that, but

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he was in deep trouble with some sexual assault stuff.

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And it went so far that he had to leave the country because the

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pressure, the aggression against him was so bad.

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And you know what I really admire this guy today, because

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he came back, he had a show not long ago, and talked about it

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openly talked about the mistake that he has made.

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And sad. And you can see it in how he adds that he learned from

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it, he had to go through so much pain,

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and knows now that he was in the wrong, and he's gonna do

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differently now. But he was able to step out there again, and be

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in front of an audience. And I don't know, maybe there's women

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listening to this, and they think Aurora, this is for

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bullshit. He's supposed to be locked up, and is a bad person.

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But I think he learned from his lesson, he is going to be a

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different person

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nowadays, and he expressed his regret. And he's out there

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again, and he deserves a second chance. So this is just one

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little example of a person who has done the work, who is back

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out there now. And yeah, he will encounter people that are going

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to try and make him feel shitty. And they're going to shame him

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and blame him for what he's done in the past. But he cannot let

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this

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affect his life, he has to know himself that he has become a

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better person. And then you will be come

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invincible, to those kinds of

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attacks. If you know you're giving your best every single

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day and you're stepping towards the person you want to become,

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then you are invincible to people who are trying to bring

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you down, it is going to be challenging at times. But when

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you have that anchor inside of you again, and you know who you

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are, what you want to do in life, and how you want to

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support people be out there and shine, then nothing will be able

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to shake you anymore as it used to.

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So I hope this all made sense to you. I hope you understand that

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the work has to start as soon as possible because you're wasting

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so much time in not living a life of full acceptance, where

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you know that you deserve goodness. You deserve

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unconditional love. You deserve all the food you need the water,

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the shelter, and goodness that life has to offer.

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I lost my train of thought, but I know that you got me.

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You have to forgive yourself. Okay, I will be out there very

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soon again. I'm posting my episodes now on Wednesdays,

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Fridays, and Sundays. And we'll be putting out Life videos for

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already, leave me a review on Apple podcast. The strongest

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currency for us postcards cost us out there. And I leave you

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now with hope and encouragement to love yourself a lot more than

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you're doing already.

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Take good care of yourself. Thanks for listening to the

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Borealis experience. Aurora